Panic attacks

Ok, so what is with them? And why do you get them? Your heart starts to race at a million miles an hour, your stomach clenches, you feel flush, and there is nothing you can do about it. You try to "control" your breathing, you try to think yourself out of them, but for what? Nothing... you're lost in a giant void with no room to breath. Your hands don't work as well and your vision is goes blurry.

Not sure if anyone who reads this has them, ok not sure if anyone reads this... But Holy crap they suck. And what's really sad for me, is I give them to myself. No one else does it, but I think myself into them. I think of something, and let it fester, then it begins. I try to stop them before they start but they are a boulder down a hill, they just don't stop, they only get hiccups once and a while. I even told my wife that the petrify me and I think I worry about them while I'm having them. So what kinda sick thing is that, a panic attack about a panic attack while having a panic attack about something else?

WTF! God can be so mean sometimes.